1. In the memoir I’m The One That I Want, author Margaret Cho uncovers the true narrative of Hollywood film producers and executives regarding Asian American representation in the media (in this case, representation in comedy) and with Asian American actors. Although the television sitcom All-American Girl had good intentions being that it would be the first Asian-American family on television, Cho’s struggle to appeal to both the Hollywood industry for giving her the opportunity to star in this revolutionary sitcom and her own heritage being a Korean woman highlights how disingenuous the film industry can be when it to comes to making shows like these that are supposed to set a good example for even better and proper representations of Asian Americans on television in the future. By producing this memoir that narrates the abuse and misconduct Cho experienced during the early days of filming her sitcom, Cho exposes the true intentions of the media and Hollywood industry as being greedy and exploitive of Cho’s “Asian” background in order to appeal to a wider audience.
2. Cho’s first challenge was proper representation on Television. In her memoir she recounts the first time she realized that Television lacked proper representation of Asian Americans stating, “one of my earliest memoires is the day I realized that I was not white, and therefore not like the people I saw on TV” (103). Due to a lack of a role model, Cho believed she could become the role model she wanted to see on Television when she was younger. This memory inspired her to accept the deal of being the main star of the first Asian-American family sitcom stating, “The network deal made me think my life had been saved” (104). However, this realization of stardom quickly went downhill when Cho had to face her next obstacle, her appearance. The first major piece of abuse Cho experienced during her early days of planning the sitcom was when she received a phone call from Gail, the head of the production company, who said “the network has a problem with you. They are concerned about the fullness of your face” (107). This decision from the network executives for Cho to lose weight severely damaged both Cho’s self-esteem and her mental state which eventually led to her being hospitalized for kidney failure. The weight problem got so severe that Cho even said herself “I wanted to be thin more than I wanted to be alive” (114). Not only was weight severely affecting Cho’s lifestyle and health, the backlash she received from critics and her own community from her own sitcom also affected Cho’s mental state stating, “rejection from the Asian-American community was hard to take mostly because the show had been universally panned by critics, panned by every major publication” (129). Due to these experiences Cho felt like she lost her identity on who she really was, questioning “the show was not me, but I thought it was” (131).
3. A concept that Cho focused on throughout her memoir was the idea of authenticity. To be authentic was to be unique, one of its kind, and have an undisputed origin. When something or someone is authentic, they are perceived to genuine and true. This idea of being genuine was one of the backlash that Cho received from her Asian American community. Since Cho was playing a rebellious teenage daughter who conformed to the American society while her mother and brother were still heavily influenced by traditions and culture, the audience didn’t see Cho as being a proper representation of Asian Americans but rather a character that was formed from exaggerated ideas and the media rather than society itself. It got to the point where Cho was also questioning herself what authenticity means whether it would be her on stage doing stand-up comedy or her on set playing a character that she saw as similar to her life.
4. This concept of Cho’s sitcom All-American Girl reminds me of the story of the film Better Luck Tomorrow (2002), directed by Justin Lin. In this film, the main Asian American characters exhibit typical yet exaggerated western high school behaviors such as partying, drinking, drugs, and academic decathlons. The film later turns into a gangster-type style film involving violence, death, and guns. Although the story is quite different from Cho’s sitcom of being Americanized in a conservative Korean household, the idea of interacting with other Asian American characters in a western setting in a comedic fashion is what draws the two stories into being related to one another. Both films have Asian American casts performing comedic acts due to their ethnicity (the main character Ben from Better Luck Tomorrow being described as the “token Asian” on the basketball team and Kim from the sitcom All-American Girl dating a white man and trying to introduce him to her Korean mother). The film Better Luck Tomorrow personally did a better job at using the Asian stereotypes for comedy than the sitcom All-American Girl but both still had a way of portraying an Asian American cast for comedy.