I am terrified. Even with having already completed one quarter successfully, I am still as terrified starting Winter quarter as I was my first day as a college freshman. Just as quickly as I had established and settled into a routine, it is now time to form a new one. There are certain aspects that I can always rely on to remain constant. Traffic already starting to build up around 6:20 in the morning. Sprinting to my next back to back class on the opposite side of campus. Being sleep deprived. And then the features I again need to familiarize myself with are the new faces in lectures and discussions and different teachers with even higher expectations.
Entering Fall quarter, the persistent change was exciting. I was eager to meet new people and felt ready to take on a rigorous curriculum. Now entering Winter quarter, I have heart palpitations.
Last quarter I only took 12 units. This time, I am taking on 16. It may be only one extra class. But with the fast pace of the quarter system, time can really sneak up on you to give you a heart attack before you turn 19.
From having better time management by saying no to one more Netflix episode of Blacklist. To giving myself a pep talk to have enough courage to attend office hours and talk more to the other people in my class. And reviewing notes after lectures when I get home instead of making a trade-off between sleep and cramming the night before midterms. With a heavier workload, there are definitely some things I need to improve upon as I move forward in the Winter. But one habit I would like to keep the same that I did last quarter: trying to focus more on the excitement rather than the fear that comes with change.